Sa mata ng iba ako yung umalis
ako yung kumawala sa iyong mga yakap na mainit
ako ang bumitaw sa yong mahigpit na pagkapit
ako ang tumapos sa atin.
Pero sana alam mo din,
na lahat ng ito ay hindi naging madali para sa akin
dahil gabi gabi akong pinapatay ng iyong malalamig na salita
at pakikitungo na hindi na sing init ng ating simula.
Sana alam mo din,
na gabi gabi kong dinadama ang mga halik na dati ay may lambing pero ngayon ay dahil lang nakasanayan ng gawin.
Sana alam mo din,
na bago ako maglakad papalayo sayo
ay mas nauna ka na sakin.
—A. Escaño
job application: describe your most recent leadership role
me: sometimes at crosswalks i’m the first one to start jaywalking and everyone follows me
Can we please stop associating being a good person with how much you’re willing to suffer in silence for other people? You can be a kind person and still say “no, I don’t have the time/energy to help you with that.” You can be a kind person and still say “this makes me uncomfortable, please stop.” You can be a kind person and still say “I disagree and here’s why.” You can be kind and still say “I’m not okay with this.” Being kind is about treating people with kindness and respect, not about being the human equivalent of a doormat!
“I want to do something with him that’s his first time. I’m going to look in his face when he tries ice cream. Every time he has ice cream for the rest of his life, he’s going to see my fucking face.”
The Place Beyond The Pines (2012)
Derek Cianfrance
fuck you i’m going to be happy just to spite you and when i’m good - and i will be good, i’ll get my feet under me and won’t stop running - i’m going to make sure every hand i extend is a kind one and when people examine my scars and say how did you get out i’ll say. i made myself a bell-tower and taught song to my blood and made light by the fire of my own heart in a place that was only anger. fuck you. i’m going to offset this by resetting my life in new echos, all beautiful blue nights and sweet mornings.
I saw a post that said “it isn’t my responsibility to rebuild a bond that i didn’t break” and damn I felt that
the biggest I learned this year is probably not to give so much of yourself to people who will not do the same for you
I had to do it. I had to stop myself from asking how your day went and if you’re okay or not. I had to stop myself from checking you at 2AM when I still see you online. I had to cut the ties between us because if no one does, we would keep going in circles with our what-ifs and what-could-have-beens. I’m sorry but I had to let you go. I did it because it was the best I could give you after breaking your heart. I did it for us because it’s already a losing battle. We couldn’t make it in this lifetime.
–Myka M. Obinque